family.

i hate that i'm not really a central part of my family anymore.

it's really hard to balance out my friends, boyfriend and family. especially since they all want to do things the same weekends/days of the week.

i don't see eric all that often, i so i take advantage of all the opportunities that i get to see him. but then my family plans outings for the same time. and then my friends decide that's the night they're going to invite me out...

i know i can bail on my family more and they're ok with it, as long as it's to see eric. but my friends get super offended.

i forgot to mention... 'bros before hoes' doesn't apply here cause eric was my hoe before i was friends with most of my current bros. they can't get mad that i'm ditching them for my boyfriend when he's been my friend and boyfriend a lot longer....

and also, most the time they want to go out, and i just can't afford it.

:/

wishing i could find the balance
Becca