had an emotional meltdown today, a mental breakdown. there have been quite a few things stressing me lately, most of which i'm trying to let roll off my shoulders.
but there was one major issue that kept nagging at me. last night, in the form of tears, it burst out of me at full speed while talking to my mother about a completely unrelated topic.
so today, i let it stir a little, cried a few times for 'no reason' or so everyone around me thought. then tonight i let it loose on eric! poor guy, but really it was an issue with him that needed to be dealt with, so i guess it was time.
in the past few months he has made several comments about the fact that i need to eventually get out on my own, out of my parents house. either alone or with a roommate. but he has made it clear that he wants me to be out of my parents house before he marries me.
say it with me... WTFFFFFFFFFFFF!
i HAVE lived on my own. in colorado, i paid rent, paid all my own bills, bought groceries, took care of 1000 sq ft! yes, that is not a lot of space, but is it much smaller than your average apartment? no.
then i lived with meg, which i have been honest that i did not feel was a real grown up situation.
so tonight i told him exactly how i felt. that even when i get a better job and am making more money, i will be staying with my folks. why should i move out and have all that extra money i'm making going to rent on an apartment that i don't really want to be in, all alone?
i think it is a much smarter thing for me to live with my parents, save money, and be that much closer to starting my life with eric.
so, he took it really well. i won't share what he said, but it was really nice to hear how he feels about it now that i voiced my opinion. needless to say, he doesn't feel the same as he did when he first brought it up to me.
i love him :)
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