4.26.2010

hello blogosphere!

tonight was interesting to say the least.

i discovered that two new supervisor positions have opened in my district.
one is in my store. it is part time.
one is in irvine. it is full time.

i may apply for both. see which i get.

..........................the downside- i will have to work friday-sunday every weekend. i will never see eric.

it is hard enough not seeing eric throughout the week, especially when i have a bad week. i am not sure how i will handle only seeing him every few weeks, if that.

i am absolutely positive it will not have a negative effect on our relationship. i am not the type to think 'i need a boyfriend who is around all the time,' i am only afraid of what it may do to my depression.

i am so in love with him. i wish that i could hit fast forward on our relationship. not because i want to miss anything that happens, but because i want to be his wife already.
i want to be around him often. i want to live with him, which won't happen until we are married.

but i digress... the supervisor position would be a good way to get there. it would help me become more financially stable, more independent.
i do not have much debt to pay, but the little wages i make now make it very hard to pay more than my minimums.


i think it is time for me to grow up.

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